Darn you Drum Corps!  Why do you have to be on ESPN right now?  Why couldn't I have just gone about my business like I normally do?  Why did I have to get sucked into you?  I had done so well with avoiding you all summer and school year.  Do you not realize that I'm trying to get over my obsession with you?  Do you not realize the pain, heartache, desire, and joy that I feel every time I see you?  I can't believe that it's been three years and I still miss you just as much as I did the day after it was over!  I want so desperately to be a part of you again.  To perform to crowds and to work as a unit to achieve perfection.  I miss the physical and musical effort that had to be put out every day.  I would give anything to be a part of you again.  So Drum Corps, I would like to say this:  I will see you next year and every year after that.  I will support you and hope that my child is interested in you.  And when Taylor and Madison are out on the field either wearing all white with Phantom, all blue with BD, or red and green with SCV, I will be there in my Pioneer jacket, screaming, applauding, and crying because even then, my sweet Drum Corps, I will miss you with every inch of my body, soul, and spirit.

PS Cadet's show was stupid..."when we work harder we can do stuff together like this"!?!?!?  WHAT THE CRAP WAS THAT!?!?!  If you have to narrate your show and explain the essence of drum corps like that then what kind of show is that!?!?!  I'm disappointed again.  And yes, Mr. ESPN Radio announcer man, this show is very controversial.  Thank you for stating that. 

I've finally figured out why I love ballroom dancing.  It is the sexiest expression of love, desire, sex, want, and passion balanced delicately between two partners.  I can't get enough of it.  At all.  I want to do it.  I want to dance.  It's incredibly unfortunate that Matt is a freaking gangly giant.  We look dumb together. 

I realize that this post may seem very petty given the current situation in other people's lives but it is something that I feel is very important in my life....

My parents have provided Jeff the opportunity to go to the OU football home games for free since he graduated.  It would only be assumed that I would also be afforded the same opportunity out of fairness.  However, this year they were going to give up their tickets and try to help out the women's basketball team with an endowment (which, by the way, endowments don't start at only a few thousand dollars, they must start higher than that to actually be an endowment).  When they brought this up to Jeff, Sarah, and I, I believe that I may have been the most shocked out of the three of us.  Not just becuase I wasn't going to be going to the games for free (like Jeff) but that my parents wanted to pay for some girl to go to school but they wouldn't pay for my college.  Luckily, my parents changed their minds and decided to keep the tickets.  I just recieved an email from my stepdad stating that I may have one of their tickets for the first game but that I was not being allowed the privelege of a Miami ticket.  Instead, he was going to give it to 'a business associate'.  My one and only question is this:  What have I done to wrong my parents to the degree that they would not only give away their tickets but also that they would want to pay for some other person's daughter to go to school and not me?

It's at these moments that it's so hard not to say "lucky Jeff" and leave it at that.

Second born, second loved.  Dramatic, I know, but hard to not feel that way.